The move...

So, it is still a few months away but it is really starting to dawn on me that this is a pretty big deal and I am 100% convinced I am leaving. Little decisions are influenced by "the big move", like whether or not I should buy cheap coffee at the gas station instead of a soy latte at Starbucks, or the fact that I am avoiding the purchase of any fashion magazines because I am not allowed to even think about buying clothes. I don't mind really, and I enjoy checking out books at the library instead of buying them at Borders. I love the smell of old books, and the library is one of my favorite places. A huge building full of books! I have continued with my appreciation of the little (free) things, like the smell of the air when I go on early-morning runs, before the streets are filled with cars and no one else has crunched the leaves on the ground but me. I am really looking forward to this change: new city, new job, new school, new everything. I have two interviews lined up for when we go up there to see apartments and such, and of course, that makes me even more optimistic. I am not excited about not having my best friends close, but I will be okay. I am also looking forward to meeting new and interesting people, though no one can replace some of the people that I am leaving in San Diego. They are the unconditionals. :) April is almost over... then comes May, June, July, San Francisco.

"To exist is to change... to go on creating oneself endlessly..."

I realized...

that keeping a job just for a paycheck is a terrible, terrible thing.

40 hours a week=160 hours a month=1,920 hours a year of life doing something you hate.

things that made me happy today:

*completion of essay from hell
*invitation to peace conference... hippie-free
*netflix watch instantly's great collection of both classic and foreign films
*good possibility of job already lined up in san francisco
*karina is back
and last but not least
*the return of yoga

:]